More Than Habits
Grow or Die is a lot about doing.
Set a priority.
Build the habit.
Complete the challenge.
Hit the goal.
I genuinely love that.
But I've learned something over the years:
If you focus only on doing, eventually you'll quit.
The vision of Grow or Die is healthy, sustainable growth for every leader.
I care about this more than most people realize.
I've watched people with incredible potential slowly drift away from the person they wanted to become.
I've watched people become someone they never intended to become.
The longer I live, the more convinced I become that sustainable growth is built on who you're becoming, not just what you're doing.
That's why I care so much about helping people think in decades, not days.
Thinking that way is difficult.
Honestly, it's inconvenient.
It forces you to think beyond what you feel today, what you want today, and what is easiest today.
I ask myself 3 questions every day.
Who am I?
Who am I becoming?
Who do I want to be?
Some people think it’s overkill.
Here's a common response I get:
"You're doing too much, just live your life."
But that's exactly the problem.
If I just live my life, life will take me somewhere.
The question is where.
Nobody drifts toward becoming a better leader.
Nobody accidentally builds character.
Nobody wakes up twenty years later and discovers they became the person they always hoped to be.
Growth is intentional.
And it never stops being intentional.
Years ago, I realized how shallow many of my thoughts, interactions, and actions were.
I wasn't becoming the leader I wanted to be.
I wasn't showing up with the intentionality, awareness, and consistency I thought I had.
That realization bothered me.
Because I knew if I kept living that way, I would eventually become someone I never intended to become.
So I started getting intentional.
I became more intentional about what I thought about.
More intentional about the conversations I had.
More intentional about the actions I took every day.
I knew the type of man and leader I wanted to become.
And I knew that person would never appear by accident.
I had to become him one decision at a time.
The doing mattered.
But the being came first.
To be honest, the habits were never the goal.
The person I was becoming was the goal.
So yes, I still ask myself those questions every day.
Who am I?
Who am I becoming?
Who do I want to be?
Those questions remind me what matters.
They remind me where I'm headed.
They give direction to my habits when I don't feel motivated.
Some days I don't feel like doing the work.
But when I know who I want to be, the decision becomes much clearer.
I've been building habits intentionally for over a decade.
One thing I've learned is that you never graduate from intentionality.
People act like once you've been consistent long enough, you can put growth on autopilot.
I don't believe that.
I've seen how quickly drift can happen.
A decade of intentional growth can start unraveling faster than most people realize.
That's why I keep coming back to those questions.
Growth is not just about doing the stuff.
It's about becoming the person.
Yes, the priorities matter.
The habits matter.
The challenges matter.
The goals matter.
But all of those things should be pointing somewhere.
They should be shaping someone.
And that someone is YOU.
If you want to grow for the rest of your life, you need more than a system.
You need a vision for who you want to be.
When you know who you want to become, growth becomes more than a chore.
It becomes a commitment.
This isn't an overnight thing.
It's something you choose to commit to.
And then you keep making that choice over and over again.
That's what I've tried to do and help others do as well.
And it's why I still ask myself:
Who am I?
Who am I becoming?
Who do I want to be? 💯
5,000 reps
I get really fired up thinking about what it would look like to take a habit to 5,000 reps.
At 80% consistency, that would take over 17 years.
I think most people underestimate what can happen in their life if they stay committed to the right habits for that long.
I started intentionally reflecting in 2016.
Looking back now, the impact it has had on my life is hard to even explain. It changed my awareness, my decision making, the way I lead, and the way I see myself.
I also broke my on and off cycle with working out in 2016 and started working out consistently.
Almost 10 years later, I’m in the best shape of my life.
I started reading my Bible every day in 2019.
It’s hard to put into words how much my love for God has grown and how much my life has changed because of it.
That’s why I care so much about consistency.
Eventually the habit stops feeling like something you’re trying to do, and it starts becoming part of who you are.
5,000 reps change the way you think.
The way you talk.
The way you take action.
This is the type of culture I want around me.
People committed to growing for the rest of their lives.
Because after enough reps, you’re not even the same person anymore.
Decades, not days. 💯
Grow for the Rest of Your Life?
This is something I think about every day.
Honestly, I feel like this should be a normal way to live, but it’s not.
Adding value to yourself and others every day should be normal.
Growing in the way you think, talk, and take action should be normal.
But most people don’t live like that.
Most people treat growth like a phase.
But what happens when you’re in one of the lowest seasons of your life? Do you stop growing then?
Growth is broken up into three areas.
The way you think.
The way you talk and interact with others.
The way you take action.
That’s it.
All I’m really saying is be intentional about making progress in those three areas over time.
Through the priorities you commit to, the habits you repeat, the challenges you embrace, and the goals you pursue over time.
That’s what growth actually looks like.
Growth is supposed to intertwine with your life.
It’s not supposed to sit outside of it.
It’s not a season.
It’s your life.
As life changes, your growth changes too.
You reevaluate.
You slow down.
You speed up.
You rebuild.
You adapt.
But you don’t stop.
That shouldn’t even be an option.
I think a lot of people have convinced themselves that growth is only necessary when things are falling apart or they’re really motivated.
I completely disagree.
Growth is what helps keep things from falling apart.
I’ve seen too many people have incredible starts only to slowly drift over time.
A lot of talent and potential. Then 10 or 15 years later their life looks completely different than everyone expected.
Because they stopped growing.
Nobody drifts into a meaningful life by accident.
Nobody accidentally becomes wise.
Nobody accidentally becomes disciplined.
Nobody accidentally becomes healthy relationally, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally over decades.
You build it little by little every day.
Who do you want to become?
Do you honestly think you’re just going to magically arrive there one day?
Do you think one good season can sustain you for the next 20 years?
It’s not.
The people I respect most are usually not the most talented people. They’re the people who never stopped growing.
They stayed teachable.
They stayed intentional.
They kept growing through every season of life.
That’s the type of person I want to become.
Not someone who grows for a moment.
Someone who grows for the rest of their life. 💯
Stop Forcing a Season You’re Not In
Most people try to live in one season forever.
That’s why growth becomes frustrating.
Growth has seasons.
Ignoring them has consequences.
The problem is most people either:
refuse to accept the season they’re in
fail to prepare for the next one
or force themselves into a season they haven’t earned yet
And when you do that long enough, your growth becomes unstable.
Restore
Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is step back.
A lot of driven people struggle with this season because they confuse rest with weakness. So instead of recovering intentionally, they push harder with less energy, less clarity, and less purpose.
That works for a little while, then everything starts breaking.
Your focus drops.
Your discipline fades.
Your emotions get louder.
Your relationships suffer.
Your work becomes reactive.
You can’t optimize a system that’s exhausted.
This season matters because if you skip restoration, every future season gets weaker.
Explore
This is the season where you test things.
You try new rhythms.
New habits.
New environments.
New systems.
New ways of thinking.
Most people want certainty too early.
They want the perfect routine before they’ve learned themselves.
They want clarity without experimentation.
That’s not how growth works.
Exploration helps you figure out:
what actually works for you
what drains you
what produces results
what aligns with your values
and what needs to go
The mistake people make here is staying in exploration forever.
Constantly changing.
Constantly restarting.
Constantly consuming new ideas without committing to anything long enough to see results.
Exploration is valuable, but eventually you have to choose.
Maintain
This is the season most people underestimate.
Because it’s not flashy.
Showing up.
Repeating what works.
Building stability over time.
A lot of people sabotage this season because they get bored.
They mistake consistency for stagnation.
So they blow up systems that were actually working because they became addicted to novelty instead of committed to growth.
Maintenance is where trust is built.
Identity is reinforced.
Momentum compounds.
Most of your life is built in this season.
Optimize
This is where refinement happens.
You cut what’s unnecessary.
You simplify.
You tighten systems.
You increase intentionality.
Optimization is not doing more.
It’s doing less with greater precision.
But this season only works if the foundation underneath it is real.
A lot of people try to optimize chaos.
They buy advanced tools before building basic discipline.
They obsess over efficiency while lacking consistency.
They want elite output with unstable habits.
That’s why forcing a season hurts you.
You cannot optimize what you never maintained.
You cannot maintain what you never explored.
And eventually you will have to restore if you ignored your limits long enough.
Why We Force Seasons
Because we compare.
We see someone optimizing and think we should be there too.
So we skip restoration.
We rush exploration.
We fake maintenance.
We imitate optimization.
Some people need to stop grinding and recover.
Some need to stop overthinking and experiment.
Some need to stop experimenting and commit.
Some need to stop adding and refine.
Wisdom is knowing the difference.
Prepare for the Next Season
Every season should prepare you for the next one.
Restore so you have energy to explore.
Explore so you know what to maintain.
Maintain so you have something worth optimizing.
Optimize so you can scale without collapsing.
The goal is not to stay in one season forever.
The goal is to recognize where you are, embrace it fully, and move through it with intention.
Forced growth looks impressive for a moment.
Sustainable growth lasts for decades. 💯
Follower Questions vs. Leader Questions
One of the fastest ways to understand where someone is in their growth journey is by listening to the questions they ask.
Questions reveal mindset.
Some questions create ownership, growth, and responsibility.
Others create blame, passivity, entitlement, and ego.
Before reading these, avoid trying to immediately label yourself as a “leader” or a “follower.” That misses the point.
Healthy leaders still ask unhealthy questions sometimes.
Healthy followers do too.
This is not about status.
It is about awareness.
We need healthy leaders.
We also need healthy followers.
Healthy leadership and healthy followers both require the same thing:
humility, ownership, responsibility, and a willingness to grow.
The goal is not to impress yourself with what category you fit into.
The goal is to recognize the questions shaping your decisions every day.
Unhealthy Follower Questions (Comfort, Entitlement, Blame)
These questions usually avoid responsibility, growth, or ownership.
1. What’s in it for me?
Focuses only on personal benefit instead of shared growth or mission.
2. Why should I have to do that?
Treats responsibility as burden instead of opportunity.
3. What’s the bare minimum?
Searches for the lowest effort path instead of excellence.
4. Why are they getting opportunities over me?
Shifts focus to comparison instead of ownership.
5. Can someone else handle it?
Avoids discomfort, initiative, and accountability.
6. Why should I care?
Reveals disengagement before action even starts.
7. Who’s to blame?
Protects ego instead of taking responsibility.
Healthy Follower Questions (Growth, Ownership, Contribution)
These questions create growth, humility, and intentionality.
1. Am I passionate about what I’m stepping into?
Clarifies alignment before commitment.
2. What can I learn here?
Keeps you teachable instead of defensive.
3. How can I contribute value?
Moves you from consumer to contributor.
4. Where do I need to improve?
Builds self-awareness and growth focus.
5. What responsibility can I take?
Turns observation into ownership.
6. Am I coachable right now?
Exposes pride in real time.
7. Who am I becoming through this?
Keeps identity focused on transformation, not just results.
Unhealthy Leader Questions (Ego, Control, Insecurity)
These questions often come from pride, fear, selfish ambition, or the need to protect image.
1. How can I stay in control?
Leads from fear instead of trust.
2. How do I appear successful?
Prioritizes image over impact.
3. How can I get credit for this?
Turns leadership into self-promotion.
4. Why can’t people just do what I say?
Avoids development and communication.
5. How can I protect my position?
Operates from insecurity instead of stewardship.
6. How can I stay needed?
Creates dependence instead of empowerment.
7. Who can I blame for this?
Protects reputation instead of owning outcomes.
Healthy Leader Questions (Service, Responsibility, Development)
These questions create trust, responsibility, and long-term impact.
1. How can I best serve this person?
Leadership starts with service, not authority.
2. How can I develop the people around me?
Focuses on multiplication, not control.
3. What responsibility do I need to own?
Healthy leaders absorb accountability first.
4. What example am I setting?
Behavior communicates louder than instruction.
5. What conversations am I avoiding?
Avoidance erodes trust and clarity.
6. How can I empower others?
Leadership is measured by independence created, not dependence maintained.
7. Who is becoming stronger because I led them?
The real output of leadership is people growth.
Take a second and read these honestly.
A lot of people never change because they never change the questions they ask.
Your questions reveal what you focus on:
comfort, growth, control, approval, or purpose.
The questions you consistently ask yourself will eventually shape your mindset, your habits, and your leadership.
Make sure you’re asking good ones. 💯
Your Habits Don’t Care How You Feel
Most people think growth shows up on their best days.
It doesn’t.
It shows up on the days you’re tired.
The days you’re distracted.
The days you don’t care.
The days you want to skip everything.
Hard days don’t build new habits.
They expose the ones you’ve already built.
On tough days, you don’t suddenly become more disciplined.
You default.
You fall back on what you’ve been doing consistently—
not what you say you want to do.
No one wants to admit it, but when things get hard, their habits disappear.
After tracking growth data for the past three years, one pattern is clear:
Most people on a tough day drop to about 40%.
They skip the workout.
They ignore their priorities.
They avoid the conversation they need to have.
They stop tracking altogether.
They’re not lazy. They just lack structure.
Nothing is anchored, so everything becomes optional.
If you’ve built real habits, you don’t operate at 100%. That’s not realistic.
But you don’t fall to 40% either.
You stay around 75–95%.
You still log.
You still move.
You still execute something that matters.
You’re not deciding in the moment. You already decided.
Inside Grow or Die, we track this every day, and the patterns are obvious.
Inconsistent people disappear.
Somewhat consistent people pick and choose.
Consistent people still show up.
Not perfectly, but predictably in the things that matter.
A lot of people will read this and say, “I’ve been consistent.”
Based on what?
Memory?
Feeling?
A few good weeks?
If you’re not tracking it, you don’t know.
And if you don’t know, you’re guessing.
That’s the problem.
It’s hard to see your blind spots without data.
You remember the days you showed up.
You forget the days you didn’t.
So your version of consistency gets inflated over time.
That’s why tracking matters.
And it’s not about being perfect. Once it’s in front of you, you have to deal with it.
At a certain point, it’s no longer about motivation.
It’s about identity backed by reps.
When you’ve logged something 100+ times, skipping it doesn’t feel neutral anymore.
It feels off.
You don’t need to hype yourself up.
You just follow through.
If your habits disappear on hard days, they’re not habits.
They’re preferences.
And if your growth only shows up when you feel good,
you’re not building anything that lasts.
Hard days don’t need to feel good.
They just need to look consistent.
Over time, consistency on your worst days
is what builds a life you can actually rely on. 💯
The Impact People Pleasing Has on Your Growth
For as long as I can remember, I’ve struggled with pleasing people.
For a long time, I didn’t think much of it. I told myself it wasn’t a big deal. If anything, I thought it only affected me.
That’s not true.
People pleasing doesn’t just hurt you. It changes how you show up, how you make decisions, and how people experience you.
Almost a decade ago, I read something that forced me to take this seriously. It was about self-awareness, and it introduced a simple matrix with two dimensions: internal self awareness and external self awareness.
Four types:
Aware
Introspector
Pleaser
Seeker
The one that stuck with me was the Pleaser.
High external awareness. Low internal awareness.
The description:
“They can be so focused on appearing a certain way to others that they overlook what matters to them. Over time, they make choices that are not in service of their own success and fulfillment.”
That hit me then.
It hits harder now.
Because self awareness is not something you figure out once and move on. It is something you fight for. And the more responsibility you take on, the more it gets tested.
Lately, I have felt that tension again. It is harder to stay aware. Easier to drift. Easier to default to what people expect instead of what is actually right.
If you are honest, you have probably felt that too.
Maybe you lean Pleaser like me.
Maybe you are an Introspector, clear on yourself but not open to feedback.
Maybe you are a Seeker, still trying to figure it all out.
Either way, this is not neutral.
Where you fall in this matrix directly impacts how you grow.
How This Quietly Slows Your Growth
This is not just about personality. It shows up in your decisions.
You start making the wrong calls.
You climb a success ladder on the wrong wall.
You stall without realizing it.
You weaken trust over time.
This is why it matters.
Self-awareness is a direction setting tool.
If it is off, everything downstream is off.
So What Do You Do About It?
This is where most people stay stuck.
They recognize it but do not change anything.
Here is how to actually work on it based on where you fall:
Pleaser (High External, Low Internal)
You are led by perception more than conviction.
Before you say yes to anything, ask:
“If no one knew I did this, would I still do it?”
At the end of each week, write down three decisions you made for approval instead of alignment.
Then train it daily. Say no to one thing a day for the next two weeks. Even small things. Build the muscle.
Introspector (High Internal, Low External)
You trust your own perspective too much.
Pick one or two people and ask them weekly:
“Where am I off right now?”
Then stop defending it.
If you hear the same feedback twice, it is real. Adjust.
Seeker (Low Internal, Low External)
You do not have clarity yet, and that is okay. But you cannot stay here.
Stop waiting to figure yourself out.
Build clarity through action.
Learn something. Apply it the same day.
At the end of each week, ask:
“What did I do this week that shows who I am becoming?”
Aware (High Internal, High External)
This is where you want to be, but it does not stay without effort.
At the end of each day, ask:
What did I do well?
Where was I off?
What do I adjust tomorrow?
Then zoom out quarterly and reset your direction.
If nothing is stretching you, your awareness will fade.
Now Prove It 💯
Self awareness is not about knowing yourself once.
It is about adjusting yourself daily.
If your decisions stay the same, so will your life.
10 Reflection Questions Most People Don’t Want to Answer
Most people don’t spend much time reflecting.
It takes more mental energy than most people want to give.
Reflection forces you to slow down, pay attention, and think honestly about your life.
And if you do it well, it can be exhausting.
Because it exposes the gap between who you say you are and how you actually live.
Once you see that gap clearly, you can’t ignore it.
You have to decide:
Keep living the same way…
or actually make a change.
Reflection doesn’t solve your problems overnight. It helps you see what you need to work on over time.
If you don’t spend time reflecting, you won’t know yourself.
And if you don’t know yourself, you won’t lead yourself well.
And if you can’t lead yourself, you’re not leading anyone else either.
Reflection builds awareness.
That’s where change starts.
Without awareness, you can stay busy but not grow.
You can keep doing more but still be the same person.
Choose one question below and sit with it. Look at your actions, not your intentions, and let it show you something.
If I could clone myself, would I respect the way I live daily?
What patterns do I keep repeating that are holding me back?
What lesson have I “learned” but still don’t live out?
When I fail, do I respond like a leader or make excuses?
What priority am I avoiding that would actually move my life forward?
What habits are shaping who I’m becoming, do I like that person?
What strengths am I neglecting that would give me an edge?
What feedback do I avoid that I probably need the most?
Which relationships are draining me, distracting me, or keeping me stuck?
What kind of person do my actions consistently show I am?
These questions help you see clearly. And once you see, you have a choice: stay the same or make a change. 💯
How to Mentor Someone For a Year
Why does the idea of mentoring someone for a year scare people?
I’ve seen two reasons people hesitate. They feel under qualified or overwhelmed.
If you feel under qualified, waiting to be perfect means you’ll never start. Learning happens by doing.
If it feels overwhelming, there’s a good chance you haven’t learned how to build yourself yet. Focus on your own growth first. But if you’ve done that work and you’re ready, what you need is structure.
This is the structure that works for me:
Daily. Weekly. Monthly. Quarterly. Yearly.
Before We Get Into It
People glamorize mentorship.
They think it’s going to be full of big moments and life-changing conversations. That’s not what it is.
The craziest thing is, growth never comes when you expect it.
I remember being on a call with someone I was mentoring. I didn’t say anything crazy. Nothing profound. And all of a sudden, he just said, “Yo! It just clicked!”
That moment stuck with me.
It reminded me of my role.
I’m not the reason they grow. I’m creating the space where growth happens.
I’ve mentored people where it took months to even build real connection. I’ve mentored people who didn’t see breakthrough until the very end. I’ve mentored people who didn’t see it until after we were done.
So if you think you’re going to be the one who changes their life, you need to adjust your perspective.
It’s not about you. It’s about what you’re planting.
And some of what you plant won’t grow until later.
If you don’t understand that, you’ll quit early.
If you do understand it, you’ll stay consistent.
Daily: Are you living it?
I want them tracking. Not perfectly, just consistently.
Without something to look at, it’s easy to drift.
I’m not just looking for activity. I’m paying attention to alignment.
In any given day I’m trying to answer this question:
“Did you get after what you said you would?”
If their actions don’t match that, we address it.
That’s the work.
Weekly: What’s really going on?
We have a weekly call.
Sometimes it’s quick. Sometimes it goes longer.
I’m not running through a checklist. I’m trying to understand where they’re at.
I’ll start with:
“What’s been going on this week?”
From there, the conversation goes where it needs to go.
What’s been weighing on them.
Where they feel stuck.
What they’re excited about.
I want them to feel like they can talk and be real.
If they’re not honest, we’re not getting anywhere.
Monthly: What are you learning?
We grab coffee or lunch.
I’m not trying to give a bunch of advice here. I’m listening.
They talk more than I do.
I’m asking questions that help them think.
• “What’s been off lately?”
• “Where do you feel like you’re not showing up how you want to?”
• “What do you know you need to change, but haven’t yet?”
I want them to hear themselves.
Clarity usually shows up when they do.
Quarterly: Who are you becoming?
We spend more time together. A half day, something different.
Change the environment.
People open up more here.
I ask bigger questions.
• “If nothing changes, where does your life actually go from here?”
• “What are you avoiding right now?”
• “What’s one thing you know you need to do, but you keep putting off?”
I share more too.
They see how I handle hard seasons in real time.
That matters.
Yearly: Look at who you’ve become!
All year, I’m keeping notes.
Wins. Challenges. Shifts in how they think. Moments that mattered.
So when we sit down at the end of the year, it’s not vague.
I can point to real change.
Where they started. Where they are now.
Most people don’t slow down enough to see that.
This is where they do.
Start your mentoring journey now
Mentoring is one of the most rewarding things I do as a leader.
But you won’t experience that if you don’t step up.
You don’t need permission. You don’t need to be perfect.
You have opportunities in front of you right now. You’re just not taking them.
If you want to lead people, this is one of the clearest ways to start.
Pick one area. Find one person. Commit to a year.
That’s it. 💯
Achievement vs. Becoming
You ever feel like you’re putting in effort, but when you step back, not much is actually different?
I know exactly what that is, and I know what causes it, and if I’m being honest, I still find myself in it. Last week was one of those weeks.
I wake up at 4am most days, so by the time the afternoon hits, I’m tired.
For me, it’s that 2pm window.
That’s where I usually fall off.
Some days I stay focused and get through it. Other days I don’t. And when I don’t, I can feel it.
What I keep coming back to is this.
There are two ways to approach growth. One is focused on achieving things and the other is focused on becoming someone.
Achievement focuses on what you get done. Becoming focuses on who you are day to day.
When I’m thinking about achievement, I’m focused on the day.
Can I push through? Can I stay productive? Can I get everything done?
And when I do, it feels like a win.
But it doesn’t fix the problem.
Because the next day I’m right back in the same spot, dealing with the same thing again.
The difference shows up in what you do when nothing is forcing you. That’s usually where things fall off.
For me, that’s the afternoon.
If I don’t change how I handle that part of my day, I already know how it’s going to go.
I’ve started realizing I can’t just rely on pushing through it.
I have to actually deal with it.
How I structure my day. How I manage my energy. What I do when I start to feel that drop.
Lately I’ve been trying to handle that part of the day differently. Not just push through it, but actually plan for it a little better and pay attention to what helps and what doesn’t.
I’m not perfect with it, but I can tell when I handle it well, it changes the rest of my day.
Because if I don’t, I’ll just keep repeating it.
Have a good day. Then a bad one. Then try to reset again.
And if I don’t deal with it, it starts to show up in ways I don’t like.
And it’s not just that one area.
This shows up anywhere you’re inconsistent.
Where you can have good moments, but it doesn’t really carry over.
That’s been the shift for me.
I can get a lot done and still not fix the actual problem.
If you want to make it real, look at your last 30 days.
Forget what you meant to do and just look at what actually happened.
Where have you been consistent?
Where do you tend to fall off?
That pattern will tell you more than anything you say you’re working on.
Achievement can get you going, but if nothing changes in how you actually live day to day, you’re going to keep running into the same things.
At some point, it’s not a knowledge problem. It’s the same gap showing up again.